in 2015 my one word for the year was GRACE. I chose it because I struggled (and still struggle) with how to handle disappointment, fear and anger…with grace. Grace seemed hard. It seemed like a word that described others that I respect and admire. It seemed impossible. I created a hand painted ceramic ornament with my word on it and hung it in my bedroom. I made a cover for my calendar binder and looked at it all year long. I bought a book about it and read it. I found pieces and passages from the Bible that shared about it. The year came. The year went. I moved on to 2016 and started working on PEACE. But let me back up to GRACE. Recently I have been offered the opportunity to reflect back on 2015 and my one word for the year.
Through a really crazy series of events that included feelings of abandonment, loss, grief, anger, worry and wonder; I found grace. I found it in the way my mind and heart remained so calm and forgiving. I found it in the way I reacted to things that would have caused stress before I practiced grace. I found it the biggest when a colleague that I admire for being the most professional and giving human I know said to me, “I don’t know how you have gone through this and maintained such grace.” I thought I would cry. And then I received an email from a company that I work with stating that working with me was a pleasure because of my integrity and grace. The truth is, grace is a process. I am still (and always will be) practicing grace. I think that grace led right into PEACE. When I choose grace over crudeness, peace comes naturally. Grace feeds a happy heart. A happy heart feeds peace.
I think that we are all here to love each other, to support each other and to be kind. I realize that living life through rose colored glasses isn’t for everyone. I have learned that people sometimes want to put their pain onto others. When that “other” is me, it is my opportunity to love harder and to give more. I am so thankful for this yearly one word and the practice it gives me to grow. This is what I believe. “A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle.”
And so as I move in to 2017, I have chosen my one word for the year. My word is CONNECT. I choose it because it is time to connect at a much deeper level with God, with my heart and with all those around me. Living in fear of being different or weird, wrong or bad is shallow (and lonely). I choose CONNECT and am excited and ready for all that 2017 has to offer. I will continue to make mistakes. I will definitley show up at times as being in my own world. Just know, I am doing my best. I am trying. I am learning. I am growing.